Ever feel like you are on the back end of things?
Current mood: frustrated

Me too.

Her back arches skyward as the long beam of sunlight exposes her to the world. The warmth of the sun sends a light tingle trough her body, she sighs. Rolling over on her stomach she see the wood grain in the floor, a never ending road to nowhere that her eyes dare not voyage on.

The deep dark, rich color of the walnut reminds her of past lovers, and possibly future lovers. Will their caress be as forever as the warmth in the floor? Or will they be as fleeting as the sunbeam?

The warmth of the sun now leaves her as it sinks slowly into the ocean. The warmth of the floor dissipates like a lost lovers touch. The feeling returns, the deep yearning. When will I feel again? She muses….

She stands.
Disappointed.
Longing.

***So...I'm not gunna lie, on little to no sleep last night I have had a lot on my mind today.  Maybe I am overthinking things a little too much, but I highly doubt that.  I'm having some issues here at school that I'm just not sure how to deal w/, nothing seems to be going in the right direction, and I have come to realize that i really need to stop reading certain myspace pages because it is just putting my mind in unwanted territory.  On one side, everything here at school is fantastic, but when it comes to the grown up aspects of being here (financial status, obligations, committments, etc..) things are not so great.  I really just wish I could be here and not have to worry about those things, but alas...I have taken on the responsibilities and I must deal.  Okay really...when it all comes down to this: I'm sick of not feeling appreciated.  Yeah, that is why I spend so much time in the studio working on projects that I make endless just because I don't want to face the fact that....honestly...nobody cares?  I dunno...maybe I just need to cut myself off from the outside world for a few days and just breathe.  Then again, the cell phone is quiet, the mailbox is empty, and the IMs are static...I pretty much am cut off from the outside world.  Thank heavens that I have an awesome roommate and Hannah here....or I might just fall apart.  Okay...maybe i'm overreacting...but is it asking too much to ask you to at least pretend that you want me around?  Maybe so....gah!  I hate this...I never get this way!  What is wrong w/ me?!  Sheesh!  It's not like me to not be able to find something good out of these situations....boo on reality!